The saying is trustworthy and deserving of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am the foremost. -1 Timothy 1:15
Is It I, Lord?
“And they were very sorrowful and began to say to him one after another, ‘Is it I, Lord?’” -Matthew 26:22
The night before Jesus was crucified, he gathered around a simple table with his closest followers for one final meal. The scene is often called The Last Supper. As they ate their meal, Jesus spoke up to the men and said, “One of you will betray me.” I can’t help but wonder what kind of tone Jesus used? I like to imagine what kind of whispers these guys must have shared. Here they are, Jesus’ closest followers, and Jesus is saying that there is a betrayer in the group? When the men speak up in response to Jesus, their words resonate deeply in my soul.
Is it I, Lord?
Could there be a more powerful, humble and soul-searching response? Is it I, Lord? Am I the one in the wrong? There is nothing defensive about their response. It is an honest question. Am I the one who is the problem? I can think of no better question to prepare our hearts during this Easter season.
Self-examination is one thing. It is a whole other story when you give someone else the rights and permission to examine you. In our “Google search” world, we often try to diagnose ourselves with what we think is wrong. Notice where the disciples take their question, “Is it I…Lord?”
I want to encourage you today to hand the keys of your heart over to Jesus. Let him in. Let him look around. Let him shed light in the dark corners.
Are you carrying any disappointments? Do you have frustration at work? Is there tension between you and family members? Is there lingering conflict with any of your friends? I encourage to start with, “Is it I, Lord?”
Prayer: Search me, O God, and know my heart! Try me and know my thoughts! And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24)