But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. -2 Corinthians 12:9
Approximately two years ago I was at a point where I was frustrated with my spiritual, physical, and emotional parts of my life. I have been a believer for over 60 years and you would think that I had it all together; nothing could be farther from the truth. I had been trying to change for many years by reading the word, prayer, attending church, being with fellow Christian, etc. So why was it not working and why was I so frustrated? In total frustration and guilt I prayed this simple prayer, “Lord, change me for I am not capable of changing myself”. Simple enough, but I had no idea what I was asking and what would be the out come.
A little over a year ago I had two serious back surgeries in less than three months. I had been physically active, working out at the gym five days a week, and now I couldn’t even walk without a walker. This gave me plenty of time to read, pray, and question why God didn’t take this back issue away. Like many other people I questioned why God heals some people but some are not healed. That is when I found the verse 2 Corinthians 12:9, it took awhile to sink in but what came from it was that I can be content in my weakness for in my weakness I find his strength.
To add to my story when I asked God to change me I had no idea that pain came with change. He taught me to take a deep look at myself. That was not fun and I did not like what I saw. He also brought many situations into my life that caused me to demonstrate my sincerity of allowing him to change me. I now seem to live out of my comfort zone much more than in it.
So is it worth it? Yes. And why? Because I found contentment for the first time in my life.
Prayer: Father, thank you for answering that simple prayer and help me to have the courage to be receptive to your guidance and direction.