Lent: Day Thirty Three

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. -2 Corinthians 12:9

Sports have always been a large part of my life. Some of my earliest and best memories have been in a pool, or on a baseball field. Even though athletics can be great for young people, there can also be adverse side effects. As an athlete, I was constantly bombarded with comparison. I was trained to compare myself to others, and to see myself in a negative way. One particular phrase has been in my memory for years “You can always improve.” Not a bad piece of advice, right? However, I took that to mean “You will never be good enough.” It took a toll on me.

At night, when I lie down to sleep, the previous day plays through in my head. Some nights, it goes by so fast that I struggle to have a concrete thought, I just have emotions. I sin every single day, and most nights, it haunts me. It keeps me awake, sometimes for hours.

For so long, I thought that my problems were just me. That I needed to “just be better”. Until, on a cold Tuesday inside of Cabin Coffee, Pastor Eric helped me learn that our weakness helps show Jesus’ power. If we could all be perfect, then there wouldn’t have been a need for Jesus. He came to save us, to love us, to be perfect because we can’t. That realization lifted a weight off of my shoulders. I’m still broken, but God gives all of us the strength to make it through life. When we are at our weakest, God shows his strength through us. Life will leave you battered, torn, and broken. In those moments, lean on God.

“Though he may stumble, he will not fall, for the LORD upholds him with his hand.” - Psalm 37:24